happy halloween!!

well, tomorrow is halloween, and we are getting really excited. neil and beau are going to be bill and ted...and i am going to be a devil. it should be a pretty fun time, as it always is every year. and neil and i are going trick or treating with rachel, my little lion cub, and her niece and nephew too...gotta get some candy!!!!! i will post pictures ASAP. hope everyone else has a great one too!!

my surgery...

it's done. i am doing well. overall, it was pretty fast and mostly painless. in fact, i would say it hurt less than getting my nose pierced!! so that's a plus, if you ask me. mom was worse off than i was at times, as she is quite squemish. she saw the needle for the local, and pretty much looked away after that. and i even was allowed to patisipate by holding the tube to the smoke evacutator. i did a great job as my own medical assistant!! anyway, nothing much to report, really. i am healing, and my next appointment is in 3 months. until then, i am laying low. neil and i are house-sitting for my boss this weekend, so it should be a pretty good time.

that's that for now...

monday morning. ugh.

well, we at kinda at a stopping point with the house right now...th inspector revealed that the roof is shot. that's about a $7000 repair. and with the exception of one room, all other electrical outlets are un-grounded. and the hot water heater is dead, for sure. so we basically turn in all these estimates to our relator and he goes to the seller's agent with these issue...but because the hosue is listed "as is" that means they are not going to fix anything...but hopefully will either shave some moeny off the seeling price or credit us the money at closing. so that's that...

i have my surgery this week, so i am under a lot of stress due to that coming on. plus with all this house stuff going on, too...i'm exhaused, and i went to be around 6 pm last night...woke up at 8, ate some food and went back to sleep. i had lots of weird dreams though, all night long. oh well.

we went to mom's this weekend b/c sara was in town. things went the way they usually do when we all get together--sara has fits, yells and acts like a brat...mom and i try to cal mher down and talk to her, not to tmention help her--to no avail. times like those remind me why it is better for me to live a distance from the two of them. it sucks--family can make you crazy.

rachel and leo came over on saturday morning, so that was a fun visit, at least. leo is getting so big!! he's going to be eating real foods soon!! and i got him the cutest little pair of camo sweatpants!! adorable.

that's about all really. i am bitchy b/c i am not having soda. and i need my caffine/sugar fix!!!!!!!
grrrrrrrrr. just wanna be left alone until i feel better about the world today.

house inspection day.

today we have our inspection scheduled for 4 pm. so i will be heading outta work to go do that this afternoon. i'm sure it will be tons of fun, but it will give me a chance to take lots of pictures of the inside of the house--so i will be posting those tomorrow, hopefully!! i really hope that all will go well with the inspection, and the termite inspection we have next week, too. if we can get everything ready, we may even get to close earlier than the 13th!! how great would that be? i can't wait.

the house=our house.

here are the poictures from the house, as promised. we have our inspection on thursday, so hopefully it will be all good news. termite inspection in two weeks. trying to get this all done and ready in one month is a real challenge!!

Home-owners???

Well, after one week of having a realtor, we have found a house we really liked...We put in our first offer, it was countered, we did a second offer, which was (unofficially) accepted--as long as we can close by November 13. whooooooooow. It's crazy!! So...We have been pretty excited all weekend long. I brought my camera fishing last night, and forgot it at home, so I will post some photos from our visit to the house after signing the contract. yay!! I am so excited to move and not have to move again until we leave Florida. One less thing to worry about!!

I have scheduled my surgery for the 26 of this month to get it over with. I'm ready to just get this whole process moving along, really. And I am much calmer now thanks to my great friends and family!! So many stories I have heard lately have given me hope that this is just a minor glitch, despite my own reservations. Hopefully I will soon be posting how not-that-bad the whole procedure was!! I'm thinking positive.

that's about all for now, really. Although, there is so much to be done now!! Neil has his whole studio to pack up, and we have to get inspections on the house, and get everything in order for the closing date. phew!! Being an "adult" is exhausting sometimes!!!!! Oh---and we will most curtaining be having a big house-warming party, so get ready for that news to roll-out pretty soon as well. Oh--and I am getting a dog when we move, too!! I am so excited. There is a fenced-in backyard that I just can't wait to get a little baby dog!! Then my little farm will be complete, although there is just one more animal that I want: a leopard gecko. They are so cute!! Anyway, enough of all that...

I almost forget to say that I cooked up the best green beans known to man this weekend. Thanks to Mrs. Paula dean and her delicious recipe!! Yummy.

~d.m.b

not good.

the results are in...
Current mood: scared

i am writing this in hopes that it will help me feel better. my mom and neil know already...so yeah. i got my test results back from my doctor. i have moderate dysplasia, also called CIN II. this means that i have abnormal, precancerous cells in my cervix. my gyno will perorm a laser treatment to vaporize the abnormal cells...and this apparently has a much faster healing time than a freezing procedure that used to be more commonplace. but the best part is that even after all this, it can just keep coming back. so i will be having pap smears every 3 months for the next year to ensure that the abnormalities aren't returning. so even if i get rid of it, i am really not getting rid of it. i am so scared and freaked out. i've never been under, and i've never had a surgery or really any medical procedures. i guess i've been lucky until now. now i am just sitting here at work, staring into space, trying to regain my composure. this was not the news i was expecting.

fishing...and what-nots.

this is me and my new nose stud.
me making my papal's favorite face...which is hard for me to do now.
at work, being BORED.
saturday night at the skyway fishing pier.
a weird fish i caught.
this other fish we caught.

pictures.

tom petty!!! AND camping out too!!

this afternoon, neil and i are off to see tom petty in his hometown--gainesville!! i am very excited, i loooove tom petty!!! and then we are going directly to our camp site on paines prairie afterwards to camp out all weekend with neil's family. it should be super fun, and i am really excited. i love mini-breaks!! especially since i have had no real vacation in over a year now...
here's hoping neil will not find any cool snakes to play with, and that i can re-apply my sunscreen enough to keep myself nice and pasty. yay!! i will be taking pictures like crazy, so look for those monday morning!!! i'll have my cell phone for emergencies, just in case. okay, that's all for now. stay tuned...

kitties!!

here are the kitties. top: serious sally and bottom is sunshine biscuits. today sunny is getting spayed, so i am looking forward to seeing if her craziness is stifled by the lack of hormones. whooo. if not, i may be forced to drown her in the toliet. she is an insane kitty!! she jumps all over like a rabbit, rips things off my walls and then EATS it. she climbs everything, including my silk dresses in the closet. she is the complete opposite of sally, the world's most regal cat. ah, well...variety is the spice of life, right?? hopefully she'll chill out a bit so i can sleep beyond 7 am on saturdays.

so, here's my before and after. yesterday i was feeling awful...and so i went home and chopped off all of my thick mane. gone. done. and i feel lots better already. it's rosh hashana next weekend, and i will be camping in gainesville, and at the last tom petty concert...and i will be having my own special new years celebration too!! ((i know, i am not a jew...)) but if you know me well, you know that i am very interested in kabbalah and therfore will be be having my first jewish new year. wheeee. i am excited.

thursday and i'm tired.

nothing much to report this week, really. i have been having a difficult time with this site b/c it is very selective about when it will allow you to update. it's weird. oh well.

buisness as usual...

not that anyone really reads this anyway.

~d.

neil vs. the snake

well...i am exhausted. but i think i am finally calming down.
neil was on a camping trip with his boss. neil likes snakes. neil has been catching snakes since he was a little boy. neil spots a snake, he grabs it. this time, he grabbed one of tennessee's best: a copperhead. and it got him on the right index finger. neil mutters one sentence, and the world goes black. he can't move, he can't see. normally, snake bites are not this fast, and not this severe...but we find out later, at the hospital, that neil is allergic to snake bites. so he went down and out fast, within one minute...to make a long story short: his vacation was cut short, at least the camping portion of it was, because he spent the next 2 days in two different hospitals. neil's father, his stepmother, and myself drove all night on saturday to go get him. it was awful, seeing him in the hospital, with a huge, puffy face. so scary, i cannot even describe all that i was thinking or feeling from the time i found out until we got to him. he's doing much better now, on steroids and antibiotics and hopefully taking it easy, although he did go to work today...he's crazy, what can i say?? he really lucked out, in every way possible because if he had tried to cut the wound and suck the poison out, he could have gotten horrible tissue damage. and this boy is an atrist--he needs those lower extremities!! oh, i could go on about how bad it could have been, but right now, i am just sooooo soooo glad that my guy is okay. it did not look so good at first.
and what's worse, a long-time animal handler dies the very next day. someone who had been doing stuff with snakes and crocs his whole life.......dead. thanks to a stingray. it's terrible and i am so sad. steve irwin was the first one on television to do what he did. and my little sister loved him from the start, making us all watch his shows. my whole family feels sad. it really makes me realize how lucky we were with neil's accident.

sorry dad...

okay, i stole this one from tricia's myspace, but i had to!! look at my dad!! he's the one with the red hat on!!!!!!! oh man, i could have fallen off of my chair when i saw this picture!!

baby season

so, here are the first two that started the craze!! milla and leo. milla is the first daughter for my best friend from high school, phil , and his wife jenni. she looks so like phil. leo is the first son for my best friend from college, rachel, and her husband chris. i'm leo's godmother, and i couldn't be more excited!!!!!! here's a short list of the others i know that are expecting: my fave shift leader from my first starbucks in tampa, angelique, is having a girl in october. my cousin kayla is expecting a girl as well, to be named molly ((good golly!!)) in january. and my fave ex-boyfriend kevin carr is expecting someone in thegreatest month of them all, april. i am hoping it is a girl too, b/c aries women are the most fantastic. (hint, hint.) oi. now do you see what i mean?? baby fever is un-avoidable at this point, but for now, i've got my two babies: sally and sunshine. they are cats. at the top of this post l-r is me and sushine squaredance biscuits and to the right is ms. serious sally micro-cat as a pirate. yes, i know i am weird, by the way. i am one of those freaky people who treats their pets like people...

my new hat

that's my new hat. i love it. houndstooth is the best thing ever, in my book.

friday.

this is how i am feeling today.

last weekend

neil is home from vacation.
yay!!!!
we had a really fun weekend to celebrate...
here are some pictures from it!

the most current version of me

Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side
Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I've fallen
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love
Running, running
As fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it?(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated
Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up...
(The future)