don't mess with boudreaux.

this was too amazing to pass up...i am going to miss my coonass name once i become mrs. king.

lessons in life.

until last week, neil and i had a friend living with us. and not just any friend, but someone who had a child, was going through a divorse, and was about to go bankrupt. this person was on the last frays of life, and we cared for her. she had no family here in town, and because of the minor child, was not allowed to move up north where her family was. she was here for about 3 months, although for most of that time she was on vacation. she had her own room to do with what she wanted, her own area to store food, and although we do not have much, we opened our hearts and our home to this person unconditionally. it was no easy adjustment living with a 2 year old who likes to wake up early every day and is making noise as soon as his eyes are open. but we enjoyed having the little guy around just the same. we treated them like family. and then a bump in the road...this person repeated a private conversation that she had with another close friend to me. a very incriminating conversation that involved her making many accusations of this person whom is verrrrry close to myself as well as neil. this breaks out into many fights...
and rather than trying to make it better, owning up to the mistake...she just moves out. tells me that i treat friendship as though it is disposable. me?? what?? i feel so confused and used and just plain sad. we went out of our way for her on so many occasions, and the first time there is a problem--one that she caused no less--she's out the door. and not just out the door, but out of our lives entirely. it confuses me to no end. i am a magnet for people who are in need, and after they have recieved what they need, they disappear one way or another. it's so sad to become bitter and angry over someone else's mistakes and poor choices. perhaps her life could have worked out in more positive way if her choices were better, including choosing to cut me out of her life. all i can do is move on. these lyrics are perfect, so here it is:

When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true I guess I, I couldn't trust '
Cause your bluff time is up 'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side Always,
down for the ride But your, joy ride just came down in flames '
Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm
After all of the stealing and cheating You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Oh, ohh Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing, the victim now
But don't, even begin Feeling I'm the one to blame 'Cause you dug your own grave,
uh huh After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture I wouldn't know how to be this way now,
and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

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